Monday 4 February 2013

Fear of New Beginnings

As some of you may know, I have not worked in over 3 years, I chose to take time away from work to figure out what I actually wanted to do and take time to self study to be ready for degree level maths.

Another big part of the reason was my anxiety had gotten out of hand due to our awful living situation of three years ago, and when we moved my anxiety followed.

But it is all change in the Lilybobomb household today as it is my first day at work and I am a little bit terrified (I am writing this up last night).

I will be working in an incoming calls call centre which I have done before but it does involve some sales.

It is something I know I am perfectly capable of doing, it is just frightening after 3 years away to be returning to work.

but hopefully when I get home tonight I will have a positive post to write for you all.

What are your biggest fears and are you challenging yourself to face them in 2013?

Mhairi

xxx

9 comments:

  1. A very inspirational post and blog for that matter. I found you through Netmums.. and I believe we don't live too far away. I too suffer from anxiety and since moving here I've found it so hard to meet people! I have overcome my first fear just like you and have got myself a little job but my challenge is to lose a little weight and start to feel good about myself again! My other challenge is to put myself out there and meet people. For mine and my sons sake! Anyway, I'm a new follower and look forward to reading your posts!

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    1. Hi Mummy Velvet, I hope you see my reply, thank you so much for your comment, it makes my dad to know people are reading and enjoying my posts.
      Drop me a message on netmums or an email to the address just below on the left maybe we could get coffee or something if we are close enough. xxxx

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  2. Good luck today, and I hope that it turns out well.

    I feel like I really needed this post right now. I have bad anxiety due to a bad living situation too, and even though I just moved, it also followed me. I'm trying to find work as my school will be over soon. I have a phone interview today and I'm very scared of the prospect of going to work for the first time.

    It's good to know that I'm not the only one in such a situation. Anxiety is awful, I know, and I wish you luck in combating yours. I will try to be as brave as you are today. Good luck again!

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    1. Thank you so much for getting in touch, anxiety has been such a big art of my life it is hard to believe it is lifting now, but CBT and my medication have made me so much more confident in my future and empowered me to move forward in a positive frame of mind.

      I wish you all the luck in your interview and life after study, add me to twitter and say hello if you are comfortable with that, or or say hi via email or facebook, this community has been a huge lifeline to me, it supports each person amazingly. xx

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  3. Good Luck to you.

    I guess just trying to become as better person everyday and keep my feelings to myself is a challenge.

    I can be a lose cannon and be very blunt about things. In today's society that is not the way to go.

    So that is mine.

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    1. Being outspoken is such a difficult think, I used to be very blunt and overly honest, but have taught myself to think about what I am about to say and if the person really needs to know what I think or is it just something I need to think for myself.

      It doesnt always work and I still blurt out the inappropriate at times, but I get by, you will find your way I am sure of it. xxx

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  4. I am so proud of you, Moohairy. I think you're finally on your way. I've never seen or heard you come back from a job with such a positive outlook and the fact you've suggested meeting another mum shows me how far you've come. We love you. Keep at it, I KNOW you can do it, and more! XXX

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